I think its a mid life crisis… Fortunately my husband and I are on the same age, on the same path and going through it together! 🙂
At 41, it is time. Time to plan it seems, feeling like my life is 1/2 over and that I should hurry up and get to the better 1/2 of living it! Soooooo, that entails many questions, discussions, and some serious purging needs done. Don’t you think?
Step 1… Pause, rest, and re-evaluate.
Re-evaluate = in progress
In my life, I am absolute about somethings, but totally lack the confidence in proceeding forward with them! Wierd I know…
- I WANT to create my own destiny
- I WANT to work/collaborate with other like minded people
- I WANT to create a future that my kids will be proud of
- I WANT to make a home for my family that is calm, safe and welcoming (this has not happened in a long time for many different reasons)
But what does all that look like? Before when I had the gallery, I had my ‘be all to end all’. It was perfect, small, local, essential, and totally me! Various reasons for closing, mostly all due to family.
Fast forward 3 years later… How do I get back? Get back to that feeling? Is it the same thing? It can’t be, history can’t repeat itself effectively.
I loved the gallery, and helping make people feel good about sharing their wares.
I loved helping the community open their eyes to the art of handmade and the good energies that come with such things.
But what to do different this time?
Step 2: Read!
Read these for sure!
Financially will it work? Do I have the energy to put myself ‘out there’ again?
- I NEED it.
- I NEED creative goodness in my life.
- I NEED to connect with others.
- I NEED to create a wonderfully satisfying gig.
Step 3: Help????
The feelings that Susan Boyle evoked with this very ‘moment’ in her life is the one that I hope to have on myself and others this year…
(minus the nervous breakdown at the end of the year!) LOL
Happy New Year to 2013. Out with the old, in with the new.
All day, I mean ALL day, I have not been able to shake this eerie feeling that I am on the tip top of ‘something’ like my own personal tipping point of such. The cliff, 2012, teetering on the edge of status blah vs. my ‘own’ path.
What does it mean to try and find one’s own path? Is it business? Is it personal? Is it traditional? Is it exotic? Is it easy? (Seriously? Probably not…) Is it achievable?
I want 2013 to be THE year. The year I do things right, take care of myself, my family, get traditions and habits back on track, pursue good relationships with those in my life. The year I search for myself and transform her back into me! The me I know I can be.
I want to be Good. Honest. Fair. in all things that I do.
2013 is an odd number, but it is the right number. Because EVERY number in my life right now is odd.
My husband and I were both born in 1971, so we are both 41!
My kids are 13, 9 and 3!
My dad died 1 year ago.
I have exactly 3 ‘really’ close friends.
I have 1 dog.
I have 1 job.
I have 3 volunteer jobs.
I am in debt by a LARGE odd number (not allowed to be printed)
I weigh a very LARGE odd number!
Seriously I can keep going…
I love DIY projects (see 3 letters)
I love TED!
Anna Maria Horner is my favorite designer extraordinare! 🙂
This is the year.
This is the commitment..
I will go on a hunt for myself, and in the end I will be a better me!
How does one digest this?
What gifts does she see in me that need to be shared with others?
Self-doubt? (It’s my middle name)